By the time I get him settled (Mickey Mouse turned on, sippy full of milk in his hands, blanket adjusted just-so), and sit down next to him, the dogs start up.
I let them out, I feed them, they growl at each other & the kiddo, sometimes I let them out again... then I sit down again.
BUT! Here comes big brother. Big brother is full of big demands. He wants a smoothie, he needs some pants - because he didn't bother to take his laundry upstairs the night before, he doesn't want to watch Mickey Mouse again...
I get him settled also, and this time opt for a cup of coffee instead of sitting down. Sweet, precious nectar of the mommy gods. How any mom (or dad, or human for that matter) can manage through a morning without coffee is way beyond me! Every once & a while I get to finish a whole cup while it's still hot. Today was not one of those days.
I take a sip of my coffee & realize I have to make lunch for Kman. I put the coffee down & stare at the options for his lunch. I really should go back to making his lunch at night. <--- I think that every morning, but by the time everyone is in bed for the night there's just no way I want to do a single other thing. No. I decide on crackers, meat, cheese, tomatoes, olives, & a chocolate milk. ((By the way, he came home with ALL of that, except the chocolate milk. Can I just not send a lunch, or is that frowned upon?))
Now Sweetie Pie Sparkles is torturing the dogs. I have to stop that. Man, I really want some coffee. I NEED some coffee! Where did I put the coffee? Oh, man, it's too close to time for school to search for my coffee. I send Kman to make his bed, brush his teeth, and get his socks. He does 1 of these things. I send him back to do the other 2. He comes back with a book & a toy. He didn't accomplish either task. Now I'm frustrated & desperate for my coffee! I find it, take a gulp, and send him back to brush his dang teeth & get his socks! He comes back down, having accomplished both tasks. At least he says he did. Who knows if he actually brushed his teeth. That's his problem, not mine. Nobody wants to be friends with stinky-breath boy!
Sweetie Pie Sparkles takes a potty break, I gather all the stuff we need to get in the car, and off we go. Holy monkey cow! (That's an old saying of the hubby's, weird, eh?) The carpool line is ridiculous this morning. Where did all these people come from? I never can figure out why some mornings are busier than others in the carpool. It's a strange phenomenon, but it's carpool, it'll never make sense.
I finally get Kman to school & get SPS & I back home, where I FINALLY get to eat breakfast. It's 9am. Gosh already! I eat, SPS eats yet again (I think he averages 3 breakfasts), then we're off for a walk. I take my coffee with us. The wind makes walking pretty miserable, so we have friends over & play.
Before we know it, it's 11. Guess who is hungry again? When I go to feed him, I realize I never did finish that cup of coffee. I dump it down the drain because I don't want to drink it now & be up all night long! (I have a strong love-hate relationship with caffeine.)
Once he's fed I turn on Mickey ((again!)) & go to take a shower. Oh, did I mention, it's now 11:30 & I'm finally changing out of the clothes I wore yesterday? Yeah, that's pretty typical. How does that even happen you ask? Exhaustion my friends, pure exhaustion.
They day continued on pretty typically. You get the idea. I'm sharing all this for a few reasons.
1 - stay at home moms DO NOT have time to sit around watching soap operas & eating BonBons (unless I'm doing something terribly wrong??).
2 - I need to get back to waking up at ridiculous-o-clock, just so I can finish a cup of coffee before the munchkins wake up!
3 - I think I've decided that *right now* I can't homeschool. I feel like I barely make it through the day with any sanity left as it is. I can't add Kman to that. Not right now. I WANT to homeschool. I love the idea of it all. The lifestyle, the ability to teach him what he wants to learn, the chance to spend more time instilling the values & morals I want him to have, the opportunity to really know him, the chance to share more time with him before he's too cool for me... I can't do it right now though. Since I had SPS & we moved away from all of our family, I can count on 1 hand how many chances I've had to be ALONE for 2+hours. Yes, I know that's part of parenthood, but I'm exhausted. I need a break. My sanity is on the cusp of breaking, if I throw in another child 24/7 it just might happen. Of course I can still change my mind at any given moment (and I probably will!), but right now I just can't. He's doing better in school & I'm trying to take a more active approach to helping him form real friendships because I think that will help him tremendously. I'm also working on the areas of education that he's struggling with (handwriting!!) and that's he's super interested in (science & reading), hoping to influence his educational passions. For right now, this is what I have to work with. This is all I have in me to give. I'm looking forward to summer, when I can attempt a little schooling to see if maybe I have it in me more than I realize, then I can decide what to do from there. Especially since he'll likely be slated to start YET ANOTHER new school that will open next year. (That will be his 5th school (3rd elementary), the 4th school since we moved here. Poor child could use some stability!)
Now, I'm off to put Kman to sleep,
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