I'm Certainly NOT Super Mom!

Look, I appreciate the accolades I've gotten for all I do with Kman.  Everyone needs an "attaboy" from time to time & I truly am trying my hardest to do my best for him.  BUT, taking on the homeschool thing does NOT make me a super mom by any means!  I dare say that all of my wonderful friends who have praised me & in the same breath said "I could never!" actually could - and would - if they were in my shoes.  I say that because I only pick the most amazing people I meet to be my friends.  ...and because, seriously, how many moms WOULDN'T do everything they had to do to help their children achieve all they could?

I have spent some moment(s) of every day since making this decision grieving the time I will never get to myself.  It seems a little silly that we so desperately want to be parents, but then we ((stay at home moms in this instance)) can't wait until the kids are old enough to be in school all day so we can have freedom - and, mostly, PEACE & QUIET. That is how we think though, and when I'm out &  see other women, who I can just tell are moms with kiddos all off to school, I envy them a bit.  I have hardly had any moments to myself since Sweetie Pie Sparkles was born.  One weekend, and a few hours here & there over the past 2.5 years.  He even slept with me at the hospital when I had my appendectomy.  I obviously LOVE him, but I also LOVE alone time.  Whatever that is.  I forget.

Anyway, back on track...  I don't think I'm especially qualified to be a teacher.  BUT, I'm certainly qualified to teach my kids all they need to know in life.  I do not have much patience (and, sadly, I'm still a yeller), but I can always lock myself in the bathroom if I really, really need to get away from them.  I don't have the energy/stamina/desire to go, go, go all day long, but it's what I have to do.  Every single argument any one of you would have for why you "could never" homeschool, trust me - I've had all those arguments with myself!

BUT, the thing is, I got pretty sick of looking at stuff like this every day:

That's his daily behavior chart FULL of all the "wrongs" he did pretty much daily. The pink things are "oops slips" that got sent home because he had to sit in time out during specials (specials = art, music, PE, etc).  These came home on. the. regular.  I also got more than my share of emails, comments from others, and constant daily worries about what was happening at school while I wasn't there.
At some point it' was just too much. The stress, the worry, the numbness I gained from daily behavioral "issues", even though I'd had multiple meetings & everyone Kman came in contact with was supposed to be aware of his NEUROLOGICAL condition that prevents him from being able to so easily follow the rules, quit talking, etc, etc.  Almost everything he got "in trouble" for was something that anyone with any clue about ADHD would know required extra assistance for him to accomplish & certainly a little extra grace.  The school continued to fail to give that to my BABY, and so I did what I had to do to give him all he deserves to have.
I don't think a single parent reading this wouldn't do everything in their power to help their child as best they could.  I can't afford the ridiculous tuition for a school equipped to help Kman thrive, so I have to be that school instead.  It is what it is.  I will always do anything & everything I can to ensure my children's success in life. Even give up my hope of "freedom" & peace & quiet for 7 hours a day while the kids are at school.
Oh, and also, didn't I mention once that his teacher made him put his Bible away & told him it was illegal for him to bring it to school? Who does that? He was SO excited to have an adult Bible of his own & wanted to just read & read & read.  Who discourages a child from that? Whether you believe or not, he was wanting to read a pretty advanced book & you squashed it based on a legality that doesn't even exist???  **off soapbox**
My life is stressed-filled & oh-so-difficult on so many levels most of you will never understand.  That's okay (great for you even!).  Those of you who do understand all too well, I do get what you're struggling through - and I know you get what I'm struggling through too. I appreciate the attaboys & back pats & the prayers & the hugs &, well, every bit of encouragement any of you have to offer! Some days knowing that someone - anyone - saw that I did something right is the only spark of hope I have for calling the day a success.  So, if you want to call me Super Mom, I'm cool with that, but no matter how hard or how easy your own motherhood journey is, you should give yourself the same title.  We are all doing the best with what we have. Here's to you Super Mom!  -and may you never say "I could never..." because, well, karma. ;)